I thought I had bad luck, that I was suffering because of some outside influence. I was wrong, I made the choices that disrupted my life and it was up to me alone to put a stop to it.  I learned that I could change my life by changing my attitude. It is never an easy road, it took me decades to get where I was at this point and it would take years to get out.  I began, one step at a time, day after day, I kept moving forward.  Controlling my body through fitness and nutrition become a blessing because I could see results quickly.